DECAF BEFORE DEATH

I got a problem with you lately (hey! oh no!)

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I got a problem with you lately (hey! oh no!) ♫

Where the intention goes, the energy flows

They say this in yoga, of course, but also in Instagram quotes I see and self-help TikToks I don’t, but I’m sure of it. I say this even though I haven’t been on my page for months, since being arguably addicted at one point, dopamine all aflutter, laughing at jokes and in-crowd cultural references just “for you!” It was a wonderful place until it wasn’t. Then it started to be the place where I emptied my already-empty cup, feeling like things weren’t as funny or cool because I just felt… empty. I had to stop dumping time into it hoping to justify or revive my sunken cost. And I did stop. And I miss what it was, if it could be that again for me. I could try it again a little if I verify “a little” more or less is okay for me. In moderation.